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[Oct. 1st, 2009|06:49 pm] |
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| | destiny's child | ] |
When authorities warn you of the sinfulness of sex, there is an important lesson to be learned. Do not have sex with the authorities. —Matt Groening |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2009|05:17 pm] |
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broke. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2009|05:36 pm] |
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B91wki_jQf0
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lowest common denominator! this week i aim to start DIY CBT. did you know i have an Education in that subject? well, i do. i mean this subject. get your mind out of the gutter! there's only one acronym for which i have the necessary bits to go DIY.
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|05:28 pm] |
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i am seriously too old and educated and savvy to be becoming this silly about eating and weight. |
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|05:04 pm] |
i found 'in memoriam to identity' at value village!
i have no money and am maxing out my credit card to pay rent!
i am enjoying 'portnoy's complaint'! |
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|05:03 pm] |
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...amazing matching new balances, btw, danforth couple, too quick for a photograph |
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|10:14 am] |
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| |  good morning, toronterrible! | ] |
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| | bauhaus - ziggy stardust | ] |
i think quinoa, black coffee, water, and cigarettes can sustain me physically. i am off to spend the day at the clothing optional beach, my enjoyment of which is totally puzzling since i have been too body-conscious/uncomfortable to wear shorts in public since about 1996. somehow prostrate nudity is much less panic-inducing. maybe my body's need for vitamin d totally overrides the mind. go figure!
also, the icarus project is in newsweek, i just noticed. so fucking weird. i will try not to melt my wings on the beach. |
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| cleaning out some text files: an excerpt from an unsent letter to a prof |
[Aug. 14th, 2009|09:39 pm] |
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dear al moritz,
you probably don't remember me as my malignant sadness often results in a mortified effort to appear nondescript and awkward as if to hide, but i once took a class from you.
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| guess what this 1956 photograph depicts! |
[Aug. 14th, 2009|01:17 pm] |
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| | learning to love you more | ] |
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Why, it's a hard drive, of course. The IBM 350 Disk Storage Unit was rolled out in 1956 to be used with the IBM 305 RAMAC. Its capacity? 5 MB. Or...a single mp3. I know this is totally already internetdotpoular, but there's a historical precedent for me posting archaic machines on here, so tell it to the judge. Tom Collins me, decade of the 1950s. Failing that, provide me with another classic cocktail of your choice.
the RAMAC
Computing Scale Company logo - steamy! |
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| now that's what i call a diagram. |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|11:35 am] |
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your itinerary open,
its tolls ticking and greedy,
its highways built up like new loves, raw and speedy.
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| and count every beautiful thing we can see |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|11:08 am] |
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| | still looking, thanks | ] |
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| | in the aeroplane over the sea! | ] |
absention, circumvention, delay, departure, dodging, elusion, escape, escapism, eschewal, evasion, flight, forbearance, nonparticipation, parry, passive resistance, prevention, recession, recoil, restraint, retreat, run-around, self-restraint, shirking, shunning, steering clear of
discussed after a long day of computer-glazed me and shit-jobbed-out partner a play about godel, kripke, marginalized genius and well-formed formulas and afterlife. not that either of us has written a play.
shut up, creative impulse, thar be work to do. ostensibly. people do find work eventually.
anyway, i genuinely suspect that our entire lives are comprised of various activities to prevent writing from taking place. whenever we're super mad at each other the text files proliferate. stupid working class protestant work ethic. the quantified self.
FOOLISHNESS, THAT IS! SURE, KELLY, IS BEEN H'ALMOST A YEAR SINCE YE GRADUATED, SURE. YOU DID TINK YOU'D BE WORKING BY NOW, DID YOU NOT?
absention, circumvention, delay, departure, dodging, elusion, escape, escapism, eschewal, evasion, flight, forbearance, nonparticipation, parry, passive resistance, prevention, recession, recoil, restraint, retreat, run-around, self-restraint, shirking, shunning, steering clear of |
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| my obsequiousness knows no bounds |
[Aug. 11th, 2009|01:28 pm] |
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| | YEESSS!!! | ] |
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| | balling up your fists, throwing back your head, and screaming | ] |
Employment scares me. Fragile self-concept?
Dear Potential Employer,
I was recently made aware of an opening for XXXXX position at your company. I want you to know that I am exceedingly passionate (to the point of sexual arousal) about the opportunity to work for you, especially as the systematic destruction of the wild buffalo and fish stocks and the enclosure of once-communal land by White colonizers of this great country has made my preferred hunter-gatherer lifestyle untenable, and left me with wage slavery as the only option. But believe me, I am damn passionate and driven when it comes to this, my only option for subsistence.
A glance at my resume will reveal my eminent qualification for this position; you will see I possess the necessary skill-set. But most importantly, many years of mind-numbing, individuality-suffocating industrial education have shaped me into the subservient, unquestioning sycophant your company desires. I will perform services for you that I wouldn't perform for even my most intimate lover, and with all the conspicuous enthusiasm I can muster. I will produce my best ideas for you to steal, and watch without complaint as the sweat of my labor is transformed into your BoTox treatments and a Mercedes for your sixteen-year-old. I am a perfect model of what The System is designed to produce, and as such, my obsequiousness knows no bounds.
Thank you for your consideration. I mean, please please please hire me. Did I mention how incredibly @&%$-ing passionate I am?
Sincerely,
Your name here
but, really, things keep me going. a summer of scholarship in atheism (christopher hitchens is pretty lulzy), free party at the train tracks (you can have whatever you like!), a good security guard moment as we're initially hightailing away ("you guys looking for the party? don't worry, i hate my fucking job! there's like 100 ppl over there drinking and playing the drum and bass and shit. wish i could go, but y'know..." erm. a nice package from st. john's. hat shopping with my hat-obsessed ex-institutionalized-in-orillia-for-40-years friend at the shop of a professional hatmaker from greece who almost went under until hip-hop got big into pricey fedoras. erm. anyway. the less i post in this thing the more it seems i feel like the need to Post and thus write nothing. kind of into a photo anthropology of yuppies and their phtalate-free two hours a day and on weekends breedership-related consumption. 30 identical molded wagons meet in the street. being between leslieville and the danforth may be getting to us. erm! |
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| les plans |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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| I use a photograph of jazz legend, Thelloneous Monk! |
[May. 14th, 2009|11:57 am] |
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| | heatwave ice cream remix | ] |
I am silly. My dad is here. We did a photoshoot of him gaping at highrises. What else? Twenty-seven; dancing the river; bonding with rosedale dogs. Face to face! Out in the heat! Hangin' tough, stayin' hungry! Hope spring is arriving where you are. xox. |
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[Jan. 16th, 2009|03:09 pm] |
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| | martha wainwright | ] |
Jesus and Mary
Are takin' me down to the
other side of town
Where they don't count the days
With steel blades on the walls of time
They just dance naked in
the sun all the time |
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| well these surely speak for themselves |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|12:22 am] |
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preview: I'M AN ATHENIAN 33YRS OLD WITH A GOOD BUSINESS IN THE CENTER OF ATHENS. THERE IS ALOT OF TALKING GOING ON IN THIS BLOG, JUST LIKE IS HAPPENING IN GREECE RIGHT NOW. PEOPLE GLOBALLY ARE DIVIDED ON THIS ISSUE. WE ARE ALL (GLOBALLY) GOOD PEOPLE.
TO FIGURE OUT WHICH SIDE YOU ARE ON, ASK YOURESELF A SIMPLE QUESTION: WOULD I PREFER SOMEBODY BURN AND LUTE MY SHOP OR SOMEBODY MURDER MY SON?
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/12/2008_greek_riots.html |
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[Dec. 17th, 2008|10:27 pm] |
st. john's!
let's do stuff!
let's go bowling at st. pat's?
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props to rodney, who is clearly on the internet.ball :) |
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[Dec. 12th, 2008|04:47 pm] |
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I have been mildly depressed, sleeping 12 hours a day, smoking too much, and not brushing my teeth frequently. The following is the most interesting theory I have heard in years.
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Bernard Crespi, an evolutionary biologist at SFU, has developed a theory - with the help of Christopher Badcock, a sociologist at the London School of Economics - that suggests a "genetic tug of war" could be behind mental disorders such as autism and schizophrenia.
The theory, first published in Behavioural and Brain Sciences, suggests autism and schizophrenia are at opposite ends of a spectrum of mental disorders. Each is an extreme outcome of a battle between the mother's and father's genes, which can steer brain development in one of two directions.
"Freud brought biology into psychiatry. I'm trying to bring evolutionary genetics into psychiatry," Crespi said Thursday in a telephone interview.
Looking at the social behaviours of the two end-spectrum mental disorders, Crespi said they are solid opposites.
People with autism often have underdeveloped social behaviours, in that they often don't say much and avoid eye contact.
At the other end of the spectrum, people with schizophrenia are often hyper-developed in sociality, Crespi said.
Their sense of self can be hyper-developed into megalomania, language is hyper-developed into hearing voices, and rather than feeling isolated, people with schizophrenia often feel as if they're being watched or plotted against.
Crespi says the theory could have significant implications for various therapies for mental disorders. He suggests it makes sense to encourage behaviours that are found at the opposite end of the spectrum. So, in people with autism, it would make sense to nurture and strengthen their social behaviours. And the opposite might be true for people with schizophrenia.
"If you have somebody who's schizophrenic . . . by these ideas, what they've got is kind of an overdevelopment of their social brain, if you will. And you basically want to encourage them to be less mentalistic, less over-interpreting with regard to sociality," he said.
"You essentially want them to become relatively more autistic in the way they think about the world." |
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[Nov. 17th, 2008|02:04 pm] |
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British colonization of North America began with the settlement of St. John's, Newfoundland as early as 1497. It officially became England's first colony in 1583. |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2008|01:01 pm] |
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| | tom waits | ] |
about two weeks ago, i started taking these omega whatever capsules that i had kicking around. unfortunately, depending on my stomach contents, each dose may or may not result in an all-encompassing taste and smell of fish. it's where i'm at, friends. |
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| The Illicit and the Dangerous |
[Oct. 21st, 2008|12:05 pm] |
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Scientists use bees and wasps to sniff out the illicit and the dangerous
A punny little article.
“Bees are wonderful insects for detection devices,” she says. “They give us an unambiguous answer, and they work until the minute they die.”
In other news, something in our newish apartment seems to be giving me, the ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) quining, and the dog terrible mysterious allergy symptoms. This sucks. Waking up every morning and having to remediate the itching, phlegm, malaise even before facing the normal quotidian slings and arrows? Not acceptable. So now I feel like I have to go on an etiological quest of sorts. black mold? malicious dust-mites? lightnings? sparks? noxious vapours? strangely coloured gnats, ravens circling in pairs? Plague!
See how England mourns, drenched in tears.
The people stained by sin, quake with grief.
Plague is killing men and beasts.
Why? Becauses vices rule unchallenged here.
Ahh, yes. Always the absent morality. Ugg. Seriously, though. Our landlord is on some month-long vacation for October. Speaking of absent.
At least A is back. Oh me nerves! |
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[Oct. 14th, 2008|12:03 pm] |
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no surrender, no delete! |
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[May. 20th, 2008|08:35 pm] |
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it was so good to see people yesterday. i get so weird and anxious from lack of friendly contact. then it circles. like when dana scully got that ergot red snake tattoo. bringing the analogies back. i think i need to book a sutherland-chan student massage before i can literally no longer move. i guess this is just a stressful time, preparing to look for a job. somebody rub me. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2008|07:46 pm] |
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| |  too much cnn, solitude | ] |
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| | john prine and iris dement - in spite of ourselves | ] |
emerging in the spring, a time-honoured Livejournal tradition here at kellista. within a five-minute walk from my apartment there is a spandex dumpster. i shit you not. neon orange stretch velvet. dayglo yellow spandex with blue foil holographic polkadots.
madness.
so i'm on a student placement with community living toronto for the next two days and then showing a poster of my work there on friday in some sort of gymnasium-based mandatory job fair thing. erg. my next placement is doing therapy with kids with autism at surrey place in north york. working for free is so awesome. eight more weeks.
also i got a giant tattoo of an analytical engine.
family and loved ones have been doing the funeral thing for the past few days. much sadness in that faraway ocean-bashed place where my heart is.
lonely me.
i guess that's it! it melts! it melts! |
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[Apr. 12th, 2008|11:36 am] |
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| | off to l'arche | ] |
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| 21 accents |
[Feb. 29th, 2008|10:48 pm] |
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| |  dental plan=first filling ever | ] |
just like it says.
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also, it's been gnawing at me (like a proactive little rodent) - even though i do think the research of inducing autistic savant-like behaviour in a mouse by altering one gene related to neuroplasticity is very cool, i cannot fairly exclaim so without a shout-out to the much tortured and maligned but apparently empathetic mouse as a species. not to mention an expression of general dersion towards the politicized american specialized-mouse-breeding industry. is it "right" or "worth it" to do research like that on hundreds of millions of mice a year? just askin' is all.
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